// Shut up and kiz ur toe

2009-08-28T06:46:00.000-07:00

WHEN I WANNA MOVE, I MOVE, Bye.
Even if you've found my new link, that doesn't mean i'm gonna let you see what i post. :D
Ask me first ok? :D

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2009-08-26T02:49:00.000-07:00

Do me a favour and click on the ads k !
(finally convinced them...)

ANW, i blog more at ________, heheehe ! i'm not saying that i'm moving, i'll still update here. Once in a while

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If only

2009-08-24T07:15:00.000-07:00

If banging my head against the wall repeatedly can kill me, i'd do it now
If jumping off frmo the 5th storey can kill me, i'd do it now (wait, it really can kill me)
If slapping myself and call myself a bitch can kill me, i'd do it now
If tying my fingers with strings to stop the blood from flowing can kill me, i'd do it now
If all of these things won't hurt, i'll do it right this moment..

I really wanna end my life now, this hour, this minute, this second.

Bye
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Jack and jill went up the hill and never came down

2009-08-23T06:02:00.000-07:00

Watched movie instead of going sentosa, all thanks to the weather ! watched GI JOE, my second time watchinggg ! After watching, basketball-ed at 492 ! then walked back home. Argh, i never study today, nvm, i'll study tmr LOL ! ok byeeeeee !

I like to sneeze ! because i know you're missing me :D

I am nothing, without you

bitter enddings

2009-08-22T22:01:00.000-07:00

AFTER EXAMS, I AM GONNA GET MY TONGUE PIERCING, PACK MY STUDY TABLE, STAY OUT TILL LATE LATE LATE, TRAIN HARDER, GET NEW KNEEPADS AND NOT FORGET, MY TONGUE PIERCING :( !

rachelllllll faster save monehhhh :( !

Flames to dust Lovers to friends

I've gotta strive to be what i used to be

Hush, hush, hush, hush

2009-08-22T04:48:00.000-07:00

I LIKE TO PLAY WITH MY SCANNER (hehehe, i'd thought so too !)

Training was that bad, at least i played with my brain ! :x After training, went to mac and have lunch !

omg, a bunch of childish people were f-ing disturbing and noisy, so we complained to the manager and asked her to chase them out, they weren't happy with it at all. FGS -.- ! ohmytianz.. then they started pouring vulgarities continuously at us. Faggots, they followed us from the mac all the way to the police station, then we went to the benches there and sit while waiting for mr tham to arrive and 'help' us. All six of us, (hj, je, eileen, claira, wy and me) sat down and ignored them when they're jsut right infront of our faces scolding ! stupid la ! they shout and shout as if they're talking to us when we're just ignoring them. All sorts of vulgarities in all sorts of languages came out of their smelly and dirty mouth la. When mr tham arrived, we went to the police station jut beside the CC to 'settle' HAHAHAHA, they're like super duper hum until like don't know what la -.- ! FUNNY TO THE MAX OK ! After like 45mins or so, settled everything, VERY EMBARRASSING WHEN THE MATTER WENT ALL THE WAY TO THE COACH. *hides face/ ! VERY CHILDISH LA.

DO WE LOOK LIKE AS IF WE'RE BULLY-MATERIAL? :( !

China girl : i'm from china
Huijie : Eh, you yi dian xiang leh
China girl : Then what? Korean girl meh
Weiyu : Korean girls got standard one
I THINK ITS FUNNY CUZ THE CHINA GIRL SIBEI BUANG, just like ___fill in the blank___(sth thats seriously very ugly)

After that, went back to ny, waited for the guys to end their training, they went to eat mac, (since we don't have any face to go in), we went to eat beancurd instead, while the boys were in mac enjoying... Then walked to the interchange then bused back homeeeee !

I WILL PLAY SMARTLY, i finally understood the meaning when she said i'm stupid when it comes to playing on court ! BUT, i still hate vb. AWWWWWW..

YAY ! DADDY'S BACK !

heheheheehheheheheiheheheeheheheluvheheheheheheheyou

Sum 41 - with me

2009-08-20T22:29:00.000-07:00

1)School was boring
2)I'm extremely tired
3)I'm almost late for school
4)I cannot wait to go out later
5)Juner's at our house, cheer up cousin !
6)I want training to stop
7) I HAVE TO STUDY.

bai !

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

ilikeeee

2009-08-19T23:39:00.000-07:00

Maths : 5,6,7,8
Geography : ~~Land supply~~, Water resource (left half !)
Literature : Properly marriage, The journey, Monster
Science : ~~Diffusion and osmosis~~, Transport in (P) (H), Atoms molecules and
compounds
History : 8 and 9
Home econ : 1 , 2 , 3 , 4 , 5

I hav tuition later, crap, just hope i don't fall asleep. I feel very tired now, i just wanna close my eyes and go into lala land ! School was okay, literature test, oh god, i really hafta start studying -.- time to stop using computer and actually sit and rot in front of the books. Make love with them can probably help me build up my r/s with books. Staying up late in the night can also help alot :D But maybe not for CT, cuz the gate opened last night :( i had a very hard time sleeping.

When i switched off the lights, sis needed to go to the toilet, when we switched on the lights, 1 moth and 1 fly appeared on the ceiling.. *shivers/ Not funny at all... :( ! The moth isn't those small small can ignore one... VERY BIG. Sis had to use my file and chase it out of the room, she also killed the fly.

I cannot stay out too late, mom and pop said that its not gonna be good for me to stay out till so late, i knwothe reason ! ah ok, nevermind, when the gate closes, party time again ! :D *grins/ ! i cannot wait to go climbing again ! Bai.

I CANNOT TOLERATE MR BERNARD ANYMORE >;( ! everytime catch the same people for the same thing over and over again ! dammit, baby hair also must clip up ! no brain ah -.- prolly because you have to much heat on your body thats why your brain went haywire, Am i right or ~~wrong~~? Spot checks every single day suck like f*

(ILUVMYPATIENT)

Daddy went to Philippines ): I didnt know about it till I asked where did he go. It feels kinda weird not seeing him at night ! Idk why

1)Never be awful to anyone, that person you were awful to may teach you the most.
2)Always remember…you are a somebody, God didn’t take the time to create a nobody.
3)Always smile, you never know whose day you might be making.
4)Never ‘forget’ to say hi to anyone, never miss the chance to laugh or smile, never get too caught up in yourself that you forget to help others.
5)Never forget that you aren’t the only one with problems, and most of all…never forget that when you feel like you only have one friend, that friend will remind you of all the others.
6)If you forget about all the bad things in life, the good will take over.
7)If fear is staring you in the face, close your eyes so you don’t have to look at it.
8)Be yourself, you can’t be anyone else…The best you can be is you!

(probably very true)

The longest word in standard English dictionaries is pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis at 45 letters long.
(must try pronouncing it, i sounded like a fish)

2009-08-17T04:50:00.001-07:00

GOSH, i'm dying to quit :( !
i don't like the fact that people always compare me with my sister
i don't like the fact that they always say that she's better than me
i don't like the fact that they said those hurtful words to me and not care about how i feel
i don't like the fact that i'm sensitive.

I'm gonna study like a bookworm, and train like a real sports person (even though its kinda impossible) ah heck.

When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place

I'm gonna go on diet ! No recess from now until the end of Ct, prolly EOY. Bye

I guess i trusted that person too soon and get backstabbed in return. I thought, i really thought.. i guess, i've learnt my lesson and not to fully trust anyone. Why do i feel like i've got stabbed right through my heart. Unbearable pain.

why must we have friends? i don't see a point in having one

2009-08-15T20:55:00.000-07:00

Dammit, common test is around the corner, and i've not started studying yet ! crap.

Maths : 5, 6 (40%), 7, 8 (60%)
Science : Particulate nature of matter, Diffusion and Osmosis, Transport in plants and humans, Atoms molucules and compound
Literature : (hafta find out)
History : (hafta find out)
Geography : (hafta find out)
Chinese : I don't care :D
Home ec : I don't know

I'm gonna go study in my room very soon ! study = one way route to dream land ! HAHA BYE !

I AM TIRED

(i don't like having fickle minded parents)

He has that ' i want you so badly ' eyes every single time he stares at me ! *giggles

I AM GONNA LEARN GUITAR AFTER CT. grrr, i've not touched it for 3mths already ! thx alot uh kyne ! HAHAH bye
I AM BORED :(

2009-08-15T07:13:00.000-07:00

Training sucked, You have no idea how much i hate the words that comes out of his mouth... Not my fault my knees aren't like any other ordinary girls k, i never forced you to put me on the main team. You have no idea how much i wannna quit >:< ! nvm, deal with it :@ ! (i dont think i can) HAHA ! i hate it when people compares me with her :( NOT MY FAULT. i like netball, too bad volleyball.

After training, went back school to help sean to hand in his hw then went tm waited for the rest to reach, watched where got ghost, Scary but funny. okay maybe i'm a scary cat =x ! i covered my eyes ! HAHAHA ! Enough horror movies for the year ! :@ ! After the movie, went 492 and slack :D I SAW SLUT ON THE BUS WHEN WE'RE ON OUR WAY TO 492 ! haha ok, bye !

i like you ! N !

2009-08-14T06:51:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHA i'm really very lazy, extremely lazy. School was great the whole week ! Just that angela was on Mc, she missed out all the fun :( ! Get well soon my dear :) ! if not i'll take care of you 24/7 ! Ok, i shan't stay out late at night anymore, mom and pop are getting pissed off =x ! (k i stopped for at least 30 mins) GAGAGA okay back, played with poiching teachers :D FUN ! after that, went for dinner, then slacked at 497, chit chatted then went back home ! OK ! BYE !

WEEEEEE I LUV U ! :D

2009-08-12T07:03:00.000-07:00

Training sucked like f* i hate swooping positions, really hate it. I mean it. Cuz i just want a fixed position on the team and not having to go in and out of the court -.- Really :( i'm worn out.

Its gonna be a total success !

2009-08-08T18:55:00.000-07:00

I'm going sentosa with a whole lot of people today ! It'll be kinda weird having the basketball girls though, ahh heck, make new friends ! LOL ! (though,ithinkmanyofthemwillhatemeaftertoday) K BAI ! :D

2009-08-07T06:50:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHA i like moving, too bad ! deal with it :D

Retardedd

2009-08-06T06:36:00.000-07:00

Today, school was fine, morning assembly sucked as usual, skipped pe because of my back. Around 1230, left class for the basketball finals ! girls won, boys lost, cheer up guys ! :D after that, went for dinner then back home, tuition cancelled, and postponed to tomorrow, Ok bye !

I WANT TONGUE PIERCING V BADLY. :(

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2009-08-05T07:01:00.000-07:00

WHY THEY KEEP EXTENDING :(
- School was fun
- Training was tiring
- Dinner was expensive ( i mean it )
- I'm studying geog now !

BAI

all ze best to ze basketballers tmr !

(LONOW)
I feel like slapping you really hard now

2009-08-04T04:06:00.000-07:00

School sucked, i feel like giving school a miss tmr, but i can't .. nvm. After school, went for lunch with sq and rachel :D camped at times. LOL ! ok after that, went back home :D i'm having tuition later at 8. BYE !

i am very satisfied with my maths ! :DDDDDDD !

I AM CHANGING MY PHONE AND NUMBER TOMORROW ! c903, i'm coming for you ! :D yes, and please, if i give you my number, dont go around telling other people k. i mean it -.-

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2009-08-03T06:58:00.000-07:00

TELL MY WHY IS THAT CHICK PLAYING MY ROLE.
nvm, move on. over it. No more talking about that jerk that lies. I Am Going To Move On . No more looking back

dammit

2009-08-02T06:38:00.000-07:00

What did i do this time to gain sucha comment?

nvm, i've got nothing to say already, bye.
i can never be a good girl in your eyes

2009-08-01T18:44:00.000-07:00

i'm waiting for the clock to hit 11 ! then i'm gonna go down and meet sq (L) ! we're gonna complete our art sculpture ! HAHAHAHA, her's due tmr, mine's due tuesday :( I hafta change everything because roxanne's doing the same sculpture as mine.. Sigh nvm, i shall go brainstorm now ! BYE !

i'm gonna unprivate my blog, (for good) i think? HAHA see my mood !

(even though i may be smiling, inside, i'm really hurting)

Cramps are killing me, >;(

I am gonna need alot of time

2009-08-01T04:38:00.000-07:00

Ok, no more playing for me after this week, i'm gonna start studying like a cow! i mean it this time, i'm gonna stop skipping tuition, i'm gonna start rotting in front of the books, i'm gonna study for at least 4 hrs a day, and 3 hrs for tuition days ! BECAUSE MY MUMMY PROMISED ME A LAPPY IF I GET TOP 5 ! i luv her to the max ! i mean it (L) (L) (L) (L) (L) x 1000000000000000 ! :D !

I AM GOING SUNTANNING TOMORROW YAY ! BAIIII ! ><\/

Because i don't wanna get affected, because i don't wanna show that i'm sad, i smile.

thanks shiqing darling (L) i love you to the max k ! :D Thanks for lending me an listening ear :D i felt alot alot better after pouring it out :D sorry for making you feel like you're stucked in between :(

eye-candy!

2009-07-31T00:56:00.000-07:00

School was horrible :( i shouldn't have gone school today.. i woke up and kept thinking whether or not should i go, i went and i got naggings for my ear studs, that bitch don't know howta keep her hands to herself and i forgot theres mt today.. >;( !! after school, initially wanted to eat with Ian but i went home instead, sorry gf ! maybe tmr kay? :D i think he's angry, i'm sorry ttm ! theres training tomorrow, I LIKE, i am going to train ver yhard for main spike since i have the chance now ! i don't wanna go back to subsetter, even worse, benchwarmer :(

:D call me lucky ! cuz, meckm ! :D

EYECANDAYEEEEE !

2009-07-30T05:55:00.000-07:00

SCHOOL = Boring.... to the max !!
i dreamt of safety pins poking my winnie the pooh stuff toy =x, scary la ! :@ !!! NOT FUNNAYEEE :(

ok, i tell you, i have an orhceh on my thumb :( i caught the frisbee, idk what happened either.. then the blueblack like bubble bubble one
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Cuz' i don't wanna hurt anyone else

2009-07-29T04:23:00.000-07:00

HAHA, i like playing with masks !

Argh, if anyone sms anyone of you with the numbers '166' at the back, and its about me, jsut ignore PLEASE.. i have i feeling they touched my phone and smsed people.. Dammit. I should really lock my phone next time..

MY . BACK . IS . KILLING . ME

I'm not afraid of dying. I'm afraid of dying with the memory of the last man who told me that loved me was you. I've lived my life in and out of depression. But since you've been by my side i can honestly say that i'm happy

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2009-07-28T02:12:00.000-07:00

1) I'm down with flu, cough and a slight fever not to mention non-stop puking ):
2) School is just so boring
3) I haven't completed my art, which is gonna be a total failure
4) I'm having tuition later on at night
5) I hate puking :(
6) People avoid people wearing masks, thinking that they have h1n1
7) I think i'm a failure :(

Last but not least, Happy birthday Rowena ! Moon (L) star !

I can't do anything but to just see it fade away.

i think i'm gonna put down my fringe tmr if i go school, cuz i intend to give sch a miss tomorrow, my cough and flu and everything else is killing me >:(

I thought i was 100% totally over him, i guess i'm just half way through..

Why when you want things to go your way, it doesn't?

2009-07-27T05:05:00.000-07:00

school was ok ? :D Hahahaha ! i keep wanting to puke k :( whats wrong man ! >;( !!! art sculpture thing was.. kinda boring? it rained lorr.. nvm i wanna sleep already, but i have to complete the presentation thing first :( Bye

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2009-07-26T05:08:00.000-07:00

Why things are very screwed up now?
Why did things turned out to be like this?
Why must she make things very difficult?
Why can't she just fuck off from my life?
Why can't she put herself in my shoes and try to understand what i'm going through?
Why is it so hard to go a day w/o having to think about such things?
Why do i end up crying myself to sleep?
Why am i like this now?
Why must i trust people so easily?
Why can't i just forget him?
Why is it so difficult?
Why can't my parents just approve in me transferring this time?
Why can't people understand me?
Why am i sensitive?
Why can't all this childish quarrels stop?
Why do i feel like as if i'm breaking down and no one is there this time?
Why can't i put myself in people's shoes?
Why do i always want things to go right?
Why am i even in dunman?
Why am i forced to join sth i don't like at all?
Why can't i get the fuck out of dmn?
Why do i always end up being alone?
Why can't i just take a million years of MC and not attend school?
Why can't i just stop tuition?
Why does he always end up tearing my heart apart when its healing?
Why is he the only one i want?
Why can't i just let go?
Why are problems piling up?
Why can't i just die now?

:(

GOLDFISH

since you wanna know what i post about SO BADLY, i unprivated my blog just for you to see that i'm badmouthing about you, and i meant what i say k?
Why do i always end up crying at night..

2009-07-25T18:26:00.000-07:00

CHILDISH, i swear not to reply you anymore, i won't even lay a single eye on you. You Are Childish. You Have No Life My dear.. :) HAHAHAAH ! i feel alot better now :D

just like selective memory loss, i don't know who are you anymore ! :D I only remembered your name starts with A thats all.

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HAHAHAHA ! we went near marina to have brakfast, then daddy drove us home. left and walked to the school busstop to meet changhao, then we bused down to mrt platform to meet markus, sq, elaine, jeeyan and ian :D trained to bugis, caught h.p Again -.- omg i think people think we're damn noisy ! see la, shiqing butterfingers spilled pepsi ! LOL ! then we went to the toilet to clean up ! after that, walked around then trained back home :D then met wx & co. slacked awhile then went back up :D 10sticks 3 cans ! cannot break right ! :D Ok bye !

Angela yeo li lin, you're being jealous for nothing k -.- sensitive bitch, what more do you want from me huh? my life? hey don't you have anything better to do other than being a bitch? You know, i really feel like giving you a tight slap and not only that k, i feel like pushing you off the building now. What a bitch -.-

2009-07-25T05:34:00.000-07:00

Traineddddd.. then went t1 with sq, slackedd then.. went to yumyum to meet markus and ch :D then went 497, elaine joined us, slackedddd then markus and ch went to get drinks and ____ then ian came after awhile. went up to the basketball court and slack, then went underblock and slack again.. We were playing with the _____ then me and markus blow it up until it looks like a balloon, then we drew on it and i named it bobby ! HAHAH ! we played monkey ! hahaahaahahaha ! it burst after awhileee :( then went home :D Ok bye !

- : whats your problem -.- bo tai bo ji ask me take care of him, what do you want from me huh? you're practically making my life very difficult for me to live on ok. i and him close friends you huanlo? jealous ah? nb, you never treasure him you come and kp so much for what sia. I AM DOING FINE WITH MY LIFE NOW. I DONT NEED YOU TO EVEN TALK TO ME OR EVEN LOOK AT ME, not only my eyes will sore, my ears too, when i hear your voice k. nothing to do go kumlan la -.- nobody ask you talk to me -.- you ownself wanna talk one k, i listen only, you're damn lucky i never shoot back -.-
TOO BAD, I DONT EVEN KNOW YOU NOW :D

2009-07-23T23:01:00.000-07:00

I THINK I SHOULD JUST AVOID EVERY SINGLE BOY AND IGNORE THEM WHEN THEY TALK 2 ME.. -.-
since you're not happy with me talking to him, dont talk lor.. ask people to spy, whats your problem la. muthafucking jealous la k. -.-

cuz i dont want them to know what i'm going through and make my life more miserable and difficult to live. WAIT FOR YOUR TURN.

I AM ON DIET, I MEAN IT THIS TIME LOL

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2009-07-20T05:41:00.000-07:00

School was GREAT lol, yeah great :D Nahs, don't worry guys !! a lil change in friends won't hurt right? :D don't be shocked if you see me sitting with them at the table, AND NO I'M NOT BOOTLICKING, they're pretty friendly and fun to be with too ok :D i know i used to bitched about them but yeah they're friendly peopleeeee ! :D Am i that emoooooo ? :( I DONT THINK SO LEHHHH... ahhh anyway, after school had the oral course ;D BORING LA -.- ... left early then trained..... dammit the hall no lights and fans -.- TRAIN WHAT TRAIN, i can't even see the damn ball please... = can't even spike properly. oh well, heck care, i dont like vb alreadyyyyy.. i play for the sake of playing now -.- k ! I WANNA GO CATCH UP ON MY GEOG ALREADY BYEEEEE !

fuck it

2009-07-18T22:17:00.000-07:00

I FEEL VERY SLEEPY :(

Ok, i wanna go back to lala land for another hour before i get up and head to ehub to watch movie ! hehehehe k byeeee !

prolly come home around dinner time ! then i think mummy's gonna cook dinner !

kay, bai !

I think i giving people too many advices nowadays and i can't even solve my problems at all :@ ! whats wrong with me >;(

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Harry potter was.. Okay? i dont really get the show =x its kinda boring to listen to their accents? but emma waston is HOT la. i'm not a lesbian, i mean she is pretty ! but, that ron kid and harry (dk what are their names) look kinda ugly now? Ron is kinda fat =x HAHA ok, i dont wanna comment on looks already byeeee !

ON NATIONAL DAY, okay still so long, BUT !! i'm gonna go out and watch the fireworks with PPG ! hahahahahaha ! :D VERY EXCITED ! :D

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2009-07-18T02:53:00.000-07:00

Training was okay? grr.. nyjc looked kinda big? my receiving still suck >;( dammit, i really lost interest in vb already ! :( sigh, nevermind. Trained, then watched the boys played friendly then left after awhile. I'm gonna watch ha-ri-po-ter tomorrowwww ! HEHEHEHEEHEHEHE ok bye !

I like the look in your eyes, gentle yet dangerous
Please don't wear glasses, I will not be able to see
Open my hands to hold you
Want to meet with you everyday
Want to take you traveling around the world
I like the way you love to pretend a foolish smile in your face
Deep at heart holding up a very strong belief
This wide world is not beautiful enough
But having you at my side, everything is all okay
The first wish is gather all the happiness for you
From the sky to the sea, from the hair to every breath
The second wish, giving you the best of myself
One more given wish is that my love dwells in you

Why do you shed your tears just for little things?
Looks like there is a lot of problems that you can only bear alone
But if only you would say one word, okay
Right now I will immediately change to be your superman
Vows are not the only thing important in this world
You just need to always kiss my face
I will forever remember this very day
Still have a long time till that day, I want you to accompany me
The next wish, give you the best of myself :D

OH YA -.- ... ytd night theres some asshole that bang on my front door and the gate like damn loud -.- .. i couldn't see the face, PLUS BANG NON STOP. wtheck? scared the fuck out of me =x Ok, i dont like k..... want bang also bang afternoon, bang midnight eh ! GRRRRR..

i meant it

2009-07-17T06:04:00.000-07:00

dammit.... forget it. WORST BIRTHDAY EVER K !

Thank you : Darren, C, Faith, Weizhe, Yichen, Valerie, Eileen, Russell, Changhao, Markus, Ningchade, Rowena, Lisa, Dyan, Wayne, Koksoon, Joey, Angelina, ryan, Yuxi, tianxin, Bryan, Eunice, Claira, Jiaen, Daddy, ahkam, Don, Jerrel, Christophere, Xuanhui, Cheryl, Jiahui, Racheal, Fatimah, Jasmine, Farah, Hongwei, Kenneth, Nazatul, Chakwa, Chloe, Buddy, Eric, Sean, Julian, Cs and Fiet ! ! i think thats everybody !

HAHAHA ! oh yah ! and thanks for the presents too k ! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY ! :D

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Val, Joey, Eunice, Markus, Ian and changhao definitely made my day better ! THANKS GUYS ! :D

HAHAHAAHAHAHA ! omg ian damn crappy la !
he's mojojojo, i'm bubbles, markus is buttercup, changhao's blossom !!! LOL ! PPG ! i dont care..... you all must play hotel 626 infront of me ! :@

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